Before I start this post, I’m not saying online friendships or relationships are bad or that real-life relationships are better for everyone. They can just be difficult for someone like me.
When I left school, I didn’t keep in touch with any of my old friends so the only friends I had were online. That was great for me but it meant I didn’t get out almost at all unless I was with family or family friends. The friendships I had (and still have) are a lot of texting and next to no calling or video chatting. That’s fine but it can get lonely and it’s easy to feel distant from the person when all your conversations are just on a screen.
It’s got better within the last few months. I’ve visited my online best friend twice in real life and I have friends here where I live who I can meet up with. It’s not as often as I would like, but I can’t have everything, I guess…
When I’m feeling down and lonely, it makes me want to talk to people less which doesn’t help me at all. I just don’t have a lot of energy to talk and I don’t have many things to talk about as I don’t go out much even now. But people still care about me, even when I’m like this so I have to still try… Friends who care about me halfway across the world are better than having no friends at all.
I don’t know if there’s any point of me writing this but if someone else reading this is lonely too, then there is always someone to reach out too. You might not believe it but people do care about you and they wanted you to feel loved.